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blogging

i really don't use this blog very much but it has recently come to my attention that there are some very interesting people using blogger, not just erika and i think i should make an effort to keep up to date and be in contact with some of these people.

so scince my last blog i have finished my degree and am now polly staple ba hons, what fun, not that it means a thing or will really really be of use to me in the real world, and i have to say that not achieving a first does make it a little little of a dissapointment, even though i know it is totally stupid of me to say that, i have a degree and thats the important thing, i achieved something that i didn't feel i could live with out achieving.

so what did i learn during my three years as a student of the arts?

contemporary music is about 60% utter shite, just like any other kind of music.
the size of the world of music in general is totally unfathomable, like space!
joanna newsom, diane cluck, bjork, coco rosie and anthony (from the johnsons) are some of the most amazing people in the world.
how to make friends...finally i can stop just being a friend of a friend!
i am a big fat gay! gay gay gay gay gay gay!!!! i fancied cheetara and the girl from fern gully and many many other fictional and otherwise people, i just didn't fucking know it!
i really am extrordinarily gay (for someone who stayed in a man relationship for 8 years!)
erika will never ever ever stop being my friend! (amazing that i learnt this whilst not being in the vicinity of her!
friends are the most important people in the world, they remind you of who you are.
everyone feels like a friendless dickwad at times!

well, i guess thats quite alot, and i don't think i have scratched the surface so perhaps it was all worthwhile!

so where/what/who am i now?

living between houses, with a lovely lovely honest lesbian relationship, trying desperately to write songs and get myself 'outhere'. trying to somehow reconcile a relationship with both my long lost father and a girl whom i fancied and didn't have the courage to kiss at college and as a result lost to the abyss....long long story...
beginning to try and write a blog that i'm not sure anyone but erika will read, but with the spirit that this is for me, even though people can read it (which is strange!)

gigs and things

have just done what i feel is the first proper gig of my life, well the first two. Got to work with some trully wonderful people, includig my wonderful, musial soulmate Verity Standen, she is trully a gem. we have been working on a project called a Contextual enquiery project in which i fully scutinised our long time collaboration. looking into how it works, why it works, why it doesnt allways work and why it seems to be majorly women that seem able to have the kind of collaborative relationship we have.

there are some fantastic books written on the phenomenon of womens collaboration, have just started one called womens ways of knowing, written by no less than four women all working together collaboratiely on a project to discover womens coping mechanisms, learning mechanisms and collaborative abilities. The majority of studies done in the field of ways of learning and knowing have been, up to the writing of this book undertaken by men, using male subjects and therefore useless to the learning of women.

The whole education system is based on this type of study, so you can imagine that this omiting of women means that the education system has greatly failed women in tailoring teaching techniques to the minds of men, which however equal i think they should be, are not the same. I wonder how different the education system would be if women had been the subjects of these studies!

anyway, the performance went swimmingly, we now have a set list of mostly our own material, including arrangements of a joanna newsom song umongst others. so onward to my dissertation, the female voice; Duende, the concept; the changing face of a capella music (there realy is some fantastic stuff out there); feminist collaboration in music; sexuality in the 'biz'; the possibilities are endless, shame i still have no clue!!

FIRST BLOG (well it is)

so... my new blog... this is because i so love reading erikas and maybe one day i will even have something interesting to say!!